A record of the last year

Daniel and I got pregnant at the end of December unexpectedly. I think we got so caught up with Christmas shopping and spending time with the family that we weren't being careful. The biggest problem is that I do not have any insurance. When we had Kailyn we applied for Medicaid and were approved so we thought we would just give that another go. But I felt so stressed out about not being insured and felt like the timing was off. We had planned on waiting until Kailyn was 2 to start looking into our options as far as having another baby. But I was pregnant and I tried to be happy about it. I just didn't feel as excited as I should be.

Then, in mid February, I had my miscarriage and it was really hard. Not only was it physically hard and painful but emotionally. Daniel took it pretty hard, too. I think he was more excited than I was about my being pregnant. But after sitting down and talking it out we decided that the timing was off and that we would just plan on waiting like we had before...within a week and a half we were pregnant. Haha! I was suspicious when I hadn't started my period. I got that feeling and decided to take a test. Daniel and I took 3 to be sure and there it was. 3 positive tests. This was all right before we got sealed. When I was in the temple I knew the timing was right. We were sealed and could bring this new life into our home knowing that we had prepared ourselves.

I got my application turned in by the end of April. Our assigned case worker was very meticulous. She wanted proof of EVERYTHING, including proof of closure on 2 bank accounts that Danny and I had over 2 years ago. Even the banks didn't have anything on file from that long ago. but we tried to get everything in order and turned in what I had. We were denied because Daniel's old employer didn't send in their paperwork and because Papa John's forgot to list the month he worked at a different location. SO FRUSTRATING! So the case worker told me I could immediately reapply (even though she told me at the beginning of the application process that I had to wait until after I had the baby) and that's what we started on. Then in June we went to New York. Then in July I went to Craig's wedding and then we went to see Daniel's brother in Reno.

So I finally got it in the beginning of this month. I did my best to be precise and hoped for the best. When I applied a few months earlier they sent back a letter within 4 days telling me I had an appointment set up to meet with my case worker. This time around I was kept waiting and nervous. I was realizing how close I was to my due date and starting to consider other options, including a home birth.

Then, on Sunday the 14th, while I was driving to the store to pick up something I had forgotten, I started to pray. I told Heavenly Father that we needed a miracle and I didn't know how to get one. And then the thought came to me that I should pay my tithing. Daniel and I pay at the end of the year because it's easier paperwork wise for the store. But I had the thought that miracles are promised to those who pay tithing. So I told Daniel that next Sunday I was going to pay off my own personal tithing up to date and encouraged him to do the same. The next day my new case worker called. He was really relaxed. and slow of speech. He kind of sounded like he didn't know what he was talking about. But as we got talking about my application and talking about what else I needed to turn in he told me he had my old file with all the information from my previous application. Now, that might not seem like a big deal, but my case worker a couple months back told me that once you're denied your application and all the paperwork with it are instantly sent away to a warehouse where they have no access to it. So, I went from being worried that our new case worker wasn't taking his job seriously to realizing my old case worker figured it was easier to deny me than to work with me.

So, to wrap this up, I've paid all my personal tithing for the year and Daniel and I are working on figuring out if he's paid anything yet so we can get him caught up early, too. I'm feeling really good about everything right now. The application is due Monday and I have almost everything I need. I'm not saying that I'm going to be approved because I paid my tithing. I'm not even saying that something over the top miraculous is going to happen. But it has been a miracle to be stress free for the first time during my pregnancy. I'm not worried about the insurance or whether or not I'm having a baby at home. I just don't have to think about it anymore because I've paid my tithing, I'm doing the work, and whatever happens is what God wants. That to me is a bigger miracle then getting approved for Medicaid a couple months before the baby is due.

Well, this isn't something that is super interesting to read but I feel like it's a huge event in my life right now and I should keep an account before I forget it. :)